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Thank you for the watch, love. <3 <:

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GuruGuruBoo says:Quakerguywasarapist
Ghost|Dragon says:HE RAPED ME AND GAVE ME PEANUTBUTTER SO I DUN CARE D8<
GuruGuruBoo says:HE EYE RAPED ME EVERYTIME I ATE HIS DAMN EMAIL
GuruGuruBoo says:*OATMEAL
GuruGuruBoo says:NOT EMAIL

they want me 2 fight; their tanting me, calling me names, pushing me around.....just cuz i'm like the emo kid. i feel sorry 4 them, they're all the same must get annoying.......they need 2 stand out more...so they beat me up. its like a chain reaction. then when i'm home...thats another story.......u don't undrstand! right now i want things to stop.

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

Well, i'm trying to help. I know how you feel about the school thing. Get that all the time.
I have a friend who is also finding it hard at school. Ive talked to her, I know how she feels. I'm trying to help her aswell.

i just dono any more. no but my aim is brokenfobluver. and i just want things so just shut off. u just don't understand! it's so hard!!! i go 2 school and people fight me and call me emo and crap. then i hav 2 go home and it's worse!! it's like i'm drounding, falling 2 the bottom but the bottom's 2 far down! and theres no air to breathe! and if there seems 2 b air its toxic! and i dont want 2 think of kids im 14! im stuck here! and no one can help me! and no one has!

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

It is worth it.
you know how NOT to treat childeren.
Do you have msn? btw.
When your childeren grow up, would you treat them the same how you got treated.
Just think, if you go. Lots of people will miss you.
Somebody will loose you, somebody that LOVED you would loose you.
Would you want that to happen?

i can't they'll send me away if i say that 2 them! they might send me up by my moms mom....and if u think my mom sounds bad where do u think she got it from!! she'll try 2 make me perfect! eating right, waking up @ 7 on weekends 2 eat with family, perfect grammer, perfect hand righting, spelling! I COULD GO ON FOREVER, ABOUT WHAT THEY HATE ABOUT ME!!! or a boarding school! u don't know wat it's like!!! this is y i want my life 2 end!!! i want everything 2 turn off, just stop, so i can think! i want it 2 b ok if i draw a blank and dont respond! i want a parent that'll listen 2 me, stop blaming me when somthing went wrong! someone i can trust, b ok with telling them somthing deep.........i want them 2 b there with me when i cry, 2 tell me it's alright, and things will change.......but i know it's imposable.its a stupid wish. i don't ask 4 much..but i still get yelled @. its not worth it any more!

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

You know what i'd do.
Tell them to piss off.
Just think of your husband. Dream of what he'd be like.
Egnore them. There most likey jealous of you. Your the youngest.
They've justr most likley reaslised that there now getting any younger. lol.

tats wat i try 2 think of.....but then @ ta moment i think of it my mom or the guy that married my mom walks in & starts yelling @ me. all i hav is my bro. and my gmom, and my gmom's not doing so well....they're saying that she's coming down 2 her final days. i already lost my dad and almost lost my bro. if i lose her i don't know wat i'll do!!!! there the only ones that love me even thoe i'm the odd ball in my family.

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

But, remember.
In a few years you will have a life of your own.
Nobody could control. In a few years I know this is scary but you could be happily married, with a child or two.
But what I like to do when i'm upset is think there is always somebody worse off than you.
Living on the streets, freezing to death.
Starving, dying, ill, lonley, people who's life could be taken away in less than 5 minutes. Most likey by the time you read this about 2 people could have died.
I'm not guilt tripping anybody. Just saying.
But in a few years you will be happy. Even if you don't believe me. It has a chance of happening.

But, remember.
In a few years you will have a life of your own.
Nobody could control. In a few years I know this is scary but you could be happily married, with a child or two.
But what I like to do when i'm upset is think there is always somebody worse off than you.
Living on the streets, freezing to death.
Starving, dying, ill, lonley, people who's life could be taken away in less than 5 minutes. Most likey by the time you read this about 2 people could have died.
I'm not guilt tripping anybody. Just saying.
But in a few years you will be happy. Even if you don't believe me. It has a chance of happening.

i hate every thing tats going on!!!!!!everythings falling apart!!!! once i'm out of 1 hole i find my self in another deeper, darker, colder hole! sometimes i wonder how long have i been falling, but it doesn't matter cuz in the end i'm gonna hit the floor!!!!!lisening 2 my music is the only thing tat dulls the pain, but as soon as it ends everything comes back, like a gaint wave of pain, fear, lies, and shame!and if i try 2 dig my self out of a hole i end up tied down! and when 2 think sooner or l8r the lucks gonna change, water floods in, and now i'm drowning!!! when the water goes down and u finaly get some air in ur lungs, i feel the cold on my skin, and i think tat the water was better! finaly when those chains come off tat held me down, u wonder if i learned my lesson. but i'm still down there, with cold air and darkness! and i'm deeper than b4! now i figure WELL THIS IS A FUCKED UP LIFE, IT CAN'T GET ANY WORSE! it does! now i'm being buried alive, loseing the air. losing everything.
it's funny, u can look back @ things b4 and use it as a stregth or end up in pain. the happiness, care-free, warm things u felt and were. but just one day, one last minute.....and everything falls apart. some one u luv isn't coming back. and then u fall back on someone, and u lose them 2! and when u find another person, after awhile their gone.....they all left me in the dark, like turning off the switch, tat'll never b the same. everything just changed. and all ur left with is the broken peices and the memories. like shatered glass. one peice goes than the rest. each peice falling cuting u deep. and u try 2 hide it, but u know it's gonna leave scars. and those scars r gonna hurt, and they want 2 fall apart.....but u know u can't.
i look strong 4 every1 who cares enough 2 look. but i'm not....i'm in pain no one c's, no one hears, no one knows....but i am.i try every moment 2 get out, leave this life, leave it in this state and never come back.... and start new.i don't want 2 run from this, but like i said i'm in so many holes, i hold so many secrets every regret and lies that makes me up. every shard of glass....

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

Don't prey for death.
I made that mistake once.
I'll never do it again.

i hope, all i do here is cry and night and prey god will kill me.........do u think he will if i ask enough times?? (i'm not religous, but right now......i don't know who i should turn 2........) can 2 my profile i wrote some poems...if u want

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

You still can move out when your 16 though.
I am. Or so my Dad says.

when i'm 16????? i'm not legaly an adult till 18 so it's 4 years..........sad.......if i can make it tat much longer

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

Just tink in two years you'll be able to have your own house.
Same age as me.

?????? 14.......y??0.o

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

There's no need for that.
How old are you?

i don't talk 2 him much and she always goes w/ his side......or says im over exaterating......maybe she's right like the teachers say the adult is always right..........i don't know any more.........and i want 2 do is gather up all my fall out boy, my chemical romance, panic! at the disco, and green day posters. go into a abandon building before its torn down lay them on the floor, lay on top of them while the building falls, and windows shater, the wood cracks and breaks, dust flies up, foundation destroyed. my life. and tats all 2 it. my only foundation is max, music, and friends. in which is slowly falling apart like roting wood. all the windows of chance closed along time ago. my foundation is nothing. now u c my life in every1's eyes.

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

Oh. Do you still talk to your brother?
I'm sorry about your dad.
Recently things havent been so good at my end either. But yours is worse.
Have you tried talking to your mam about this?

u said u liked my avi. i think. ^^'

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

well if this is a faze we been going through it for 9 years. when my dad died....i was 5, my bro was 15. after tat every1 made a turn 4 the worse.no 1 been the same in my family. my bro. attempted suiced 2 times, my mom always had 2 work even on weekends, just 2 keep the house, (which had holes in the floor and the back wall was about 2 coplasps.)my bro. watched me 4 a long time, but he was making bad choices @ the time.it was hard on every1.till my mom decied 2 go & get a bf, which she did. he made her happy, he bought her stuff, fix things around the house. he spent along time around us. but i wasn't so convinced, but i acted like it bcuz she was so happy. till 1 day she came home with tat rock on her finger. i wanted so bad 2 rip it off and through it out the window, or put it in the sink and turn the sink on. but in sted i smiled and said congrats. not long after my mom sold the house, and we left town. i left my friends and lived here, my bro. decided 2 go join the army. he was the only person i was close 2. but after 4 months of not cing him or talking he had a asma attack during training. a week l8r he came home, i spent every hour huging him and telling him i missed him and 2 never leave again. everything had its problems we were fine 4 a week, but again things made a turn 4 the worse. my bro moved out w/ a girl he met in the army and moved 2 fl. every1 in my new school was a jerk. and short summery i never got close 2 my family, my mom changed, i don't like my stepdad. and i'm screwed up.

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we're the new face of failure prettier, and younger but not any better off -Fall Out Boy-

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"The inside of my face hurts." ~fearofxfalling

No problem. Thanks for what btw?
:s lol